OK, I have sat around for the longest time racking my brain for an idea to write about. Unfortunately my mind kept wandering to all the things I need to do to get ready for Christmas. So I decided to check out the DOC and try to get an idea from them. Unfortunately, all anyone is talking about is Brittany Murphy. I really am not a chick-flick fan but I remember her from the TV show “The Torkelsons”. She was a cute kid and not a bad actress. So the question is, is she diabetic and if so, what type? It would be a shame if she were a Type 1 because I would suspect Diabulimia. Who knows, I guess the rumors will fly till it is confirmed one way or another.
I have never attempted withholding insulin from myself to lose weight. I cannot say that it doesn’t cross my mind though. I was bulimic and certainly withheld food from myself for years. So, yeah the idea of a quick fix to lose weight is somehow tempting at times. I discussed this recently with my neurologist and I explained that I just couldn’t see how someone who starved herself in the past could let herself get so obese? Of course I know the answers already but having a doctor confirm it felt good.
I was given the OK to exercise and still not much has changed. I could blame the weather, the amount of things that are keeping me busy that prevent me from getting up and moving more. Still the biggest obstacle is me. So I remain angry and full of self loathing, which does wonders for my sugars and really makes me feel so festive.
Christmas is actually getting me out of the house a bit more lately. I have a big love hate relationship with Christmas. I love the crowds, the shopping, the entertaining. I just hate how much it costs, how quickly it’s over and how absolutely drained I am by the time it’s done. We do Christmas Eve at Greg’s Mom’s house and Christmas Day at my Mom’s. I help out with both events and it is just a lot of work. Maybe I should offer to be Santa this year to help me get in the spirit of the season. Then again I don’t know if the suit would fit and I wouldn’t like being the center of attention this year.
This Christmas I will be trying to find time to talk to a friend of ours during all the festivities. I just learned her not even 1 year old niece was diagnosed with Type 1 recently. I was not a diabetic as a child, still I would hope I could offer some insights, or maybe answer questions or offer some type of help. I hate anyone getting Type 1, when it’s an infant, it just seems extra cruel.
OK I am officially a Grinch and I apologize for it. Still, if I can’t be honest here, where can I be? I really do wish you all a very happy holiday season. I think I will better next week when my menses is over.
I know this may sound crazy but after rereading this I feel better. My BS has been high for three days. I don’t feel well. However I don’t want to be this year’s Grinch. So if you happen to see me, give me a hug and watch heart grow three sizes
I’m sorry that this time of year is leaving you feel overwhelmed. I will definitely give you a great big hug when I see you!!! I hope after all the hard work, the holidays are enjoyable for you
Hi Tina,
the next time I see you I will give you a huge hug! Hopefully is sooner than later! I know the holidays are tough…they are tough for me too for a different reason and there has been days where I was totally into the christmas spirit and the following day a total Grinch. Hopefully it will get better for you, and you are able to enjoy the holidays! xoxoxoxoxo
((((((((((((((((((((HUGE VIRTUAL HUG)))))))))))))))
I probably won’t make it to Tuesday night’s meeting, but I wanted to give you a hug before 2010!
When the weather gets better I promise to start the walking club
Here comes more hugs *hugs*
Thanks for posting this
and I am so in for the walking club
I hope you can catch my virtual hug from across the country, my dear, I’m sending it your way! Take care, and remember to look out for you even while you’re helping everyone enjoy their holidays, you deserve to enjoy yours too!